You hang me up unfinished with the better part of me. No longer mine.

 Futures:

 I am ready for my future to come now. I keep saying all these things that I am going to do but I never put actions behind my words. As we all know my word is shit (as is most peoples). I want to go back to school to become a teacher (elementary). I have been looking at a few schools and even called a few to make appointments to visit. Seeing as how most of the schools I want to go to are out of state I would be paying double (or triple in some cases) to attend school for the first year. I dont really care though I want to go and I want to go this fall. Its important that I start as soon as I can. I need to start new somewhere and get my brain and body moving. I have been idle for so long. Too many people have been watching and laughing while I fail throughout my life. Not anymore. I have to forget about everyone. They are all distractions anyways.

I want to have a wife and kids and a home. I want to be stable in my life. I want to be happy. I want a bright future.

In the next few months I have a few big trips coming up. Next month I will be visiting Miami for a week and the month after that I will be visiting Chicago.

I hope to stay busy in these coming months. Keep my mind clear.

Keep my eyes on the future. Keep my back to the past.


"You're a beautiful person with incredible things to offer a rotten world."

.....Thank you Rachel.