In Virginia Heat

I've been trying to find something to say
it's not working out the way I planned
and now I'm in the same place I've always found myself in
apologizing for my mistakes, not learning from them
what do I know of regret, what do I know of remorse
admitting to my bad habits, not turning from them
what do I do when nothing is going right
I use some elaborate word to cover up my being unsure about everything
it's just my defence to stop from letting you in
it's so much easier to go on living without ever thinking about
what else there might be besides what these eyes can see
we could live our entire lives
without holding one serious thought in our minds
and what a shame
what a shame because we're capable of so much
we only have ourselves to blame
so what do you think, where do you stand
is it the same place that you've always been
it is time for change, is it time to grow
who you might become you will never know
who is that someone that you've always tried to be
what stops you from making it a reality
so why try to hide it, why try to fight it
where is your heart and what's inside it
what a shame if you never know.



Its hot here.....Very hot!
It rained today.....Hot rain!

I need to grow up. I need to show myself that i can do something worthwhile. I am trying. I am tired. I will make it work though. I really just need to get my shit together. Get a job. Get a car. Get a place. Get. Get. Get.

I applied to three job that are hiring. Goodwill, Some video game/DVD store, and Hallmark. My fingers are broken from crossing them to hard so if you could do that for me it would be greatly appreciated :-)

I.....
Am.....
Working.....
On.....
It.....

The bugs here in Virginia have been singing me to sleep these last few nights. They have a great song to sing.
The trains here in Virginia have been singing me to sleep these last few nights. They have a great song to sing.

Bugs+Trains=Lullabies

I miss my family and my friends and i hope they are all doing well. Love.

I hope the sun rises with a smile tomorrow.....